Update.
Okay so I know I’ve been gone for about 2 months so let me fill you in.
So right around when I left off in the last post I was struggling severely mentally and physically. I was changing my medications up, I was feeling anxious and in pain.
Throughout that whole process I started to decline mentally.
I ended up trying a few medications that did not agree with my body and I had to go into the emergency room where I was then transported to an in-patient hospital.
I know this sounds intense and it was, what I’ve been through is not for the weak of souls.
However, I truly believe to my core that everything happens for a reason. Even though I hit was I assume was near my rock bottom I have been able to come up from that.
I stayed in the in-patient hospital for 9 days and then was released on the 9th day to my mom.
P.s. I just need to note. I could not do this without my mom. She’s been not only taking care of my dad but also taking care of me when I needed it the most.
Okay, back to the story.
Upon arriving home from in-patient, I knew that I wasn’t doing very well but being in the hospital was not helping me. So over the last few weeks, I’ve met with psychiatrists who have helped me to (1) sleep and (2) manage the medications that I need in order to be a functioning human again.
That being said, I’ll update my about section with all of the stuff that’s been given to me and what has worked and what hasn’t.
But I just want to use this entry to say that my mantra of the spring is that it has to get worse before it gets better. And if that ain’t the truth right now. I’ve been through what feels like Hell and back again and I’m doing mentally better. I still struggle here and there and it’s really rough, but I can already see a difference. I’m working out again and by working out I mean walking on the treadmill for 20 minutes at a time and organizing my life. I finally feel like my job is in a good place which is a relief.
And I know the journey forward is going to be full of challenges because that’s just how life goes, but we are on a better path because I had to go through that.
I did find out through that journey that I most likely have sleep apnea which is probably why I’m tired all of the time and having some of these mental health challenges. I also found out that I have fluid in my ears which is most likely why I’m dizzy sometimes.
So like I said, good things have come out of this and I’m proud of myself for sticking through this tough as fuck journey to get to where I am now.
I also know that this seems like fluff, but I’ve talked about my journey in my therapy and I don’t need to rehash it here. People who read this just need to know the basics of what has happened and I’m excited to get back to writing on here with updates of my health journey hopefully soon.
(Picture is from downtown Tucson, AZ, USA.)