ABOUT

About me … and what has been going on …

Here is a little background about me.

So I wouldn’t necessarily say I’m a blogging or even sharing kind of person, but I feel the need to share my story now.

I have always been a sickly kind of person. If anyone would catch a cold at school, I’d be the next person to get it. I grew up just used to this and used to not feeling well and being in pain. It was my normal. However, in the last 10 years I have become increasingly more sick and fatigued, which eventually resulted in me passing out and getting a pretty bad concussion on my birthday in 2019. This altered my life and ever since then I have experiencing worsening health. I tried to ignore it and chalk it up to my lifetime of not feeling well, but then things took a very scary turn in November 2023 where I begun visiting the hospital more times than I can even remember. Ever since then, I’ve had to make some tough decisions and have been trying to stay strong to figure out what is wrong with me.

So here we are, in present day. On this journey, we all call life, trying to figure out what it is that is making me so sick and unwell. I plan to use this blog mostly as a therapeutic tool for myself to share my thoughts but also to spread awareness about rare conditions, being your own advocate, and even tips for the U.S. healthcare system. I’m sure as I write, other thoughts about life, love, work, and more will pop up. So please bare with me and enjoy a little peak into my mind and life.

Up to date medical information…

Doctors I have seen so far:

  • Gastroenterologist
  • Primary care physician
  • Gynecologist
  • Dentist
  • Ophthalmologist
  • Cardiologist
  • Otolaryngologist (ENT)
  • Naturopathic doctor
  • Physical therapist
  • Neurologist
  • Dietician
  • Psychiatrist
  • Therapist
  • Endocrinologist
  • Dermatologist
  • Allergist
  • Colorectal surgeon
  • Physical Therapist
  • Rheumatologist
  • Pelvic pain specialist

Tests / procedures I’ve had so far:

  • Colonoscopy
  • Endoscopy
  • Halter monitor
  • Brain MRI
  • Brain CT
  • Sinus CT
  • Abdominal CT
  • Echocardiogram
  • Bloodwork (ANA for connective tissue disorders, rheumatoid factor, cyclic citrullinated peptide antibody, complete blood count, …)
  • Chest x-ray
  • ECG
  • Fecal testing
  • 72 hour fast
  • Sleep apnea test
  • Hearing test
  • Videonystagmography (VNG)
  • Anorectal manometry
  • MR Enterography
  • MRI with defecography
  • Temporal bone CT
  • Wrist x-ray
  • Hand x-ray
  • Mesenteric duplex ultrasound
  • Hand ultrasound

Emergency room visits:

  • I have now visited the emergency room 15 times and have stayed there twice both for 2 nights and 3 days…

What I have been diagnosed with so far:

  • Systemic Inflammatory Response Syndrome (SIRS) > was hospitalized and resolved
  • C. difficile > resolved
  • Small intestinal bacterial overgrowth (SIBO) > keeps coming back
  • Irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) > work in progress
  • Hypoglycemia > confusing
  • 2 colon polyps (9mm and 3mm) > removed
  • Esophageal ulcer > improving
  • Dyssynergic defecation > work in progress
  • Small anterior rectocele > still have
  • Tear in my right puborectalis muscle > still have
  • Tarlov cysts > still have
  • Levator syndrome > this is a secondary outcome to all of the irritation going on it my colon
  • Anal fissures > suspected
  • Hemorrhoids > large and one has burst before
  • Eczema > using creams to help

Symptoms:

  • Ongoing
    • headache / migraine / head pressure
    • fatigue
    • hypoglycemia
    • tremors / shakes / muscle spasms / muscle tightness / weakness
    • dizzy / light-headed
    • shortness of breath
    • hives / dermatographia / facial flushing and swollen face / itchiness / swollen and red hands / eczema / skin bumps 
    • cold hands / feet
    • tachycardia / heart palpitations
    • diarrhea / constipation / abdominal pain / nausea / bloody stool 
    • light sensitivity
    • joint pain / bone pain / muscle pain
    • brain fog (dissociated feeling) / anxiety
    • yellow / orange stool
  • Improving
    • double vision
    • visual hallucinations
    • heart palpitations > better because of metoprolol
    • high heart rate (tachycardia) > better because of metoprolol
    • dehydration
    • weight loss (I lost 30 lbs in 6 months)
    • irregular periods
  • Weird symptoms
    • get dizzy when I drink too much water or when I drink sparkling water 
    • get dizzy and lightheaded when I eat sugar 
  • Symptoms in action
    • dizzy when I eat or drink
    • dizzy and lightheaded and hot when I need to have a bowel movement
    • pre-syncope when having a bowel movement
    • cannot tolerate a lot of medicines because of adverse effects
    • allergic reactions to random foods
    • stomach pain and shakes when I eat and after eating
    • if I’m having spasms and I have a bowel movement or pass gas, they usually improve
    • sometimes when I am having the shakes or am dizzy and I drink juice, I feel better and get really sleepy but not always

Medications:

  • Still taking:
    • Metoprolol succinate ER (daily)
    • Tylenol (as needed)
    • Toradol (as needed)
    • IB gard (as needed)
    • Tizanidine (as needed)
    • Zyrtec (as needed)
    • Allegra (as needed)
  • No longer taking:
    • Benefiber (for diarrhea and constipation, didn’t work, stopped)
    • Miralax (for constipation, made me dizzy, stopped)
    • Nortriptyline (for diarrhea and constipation, didn’t work and had bad side effects, stopped)
    • Dicyclomine (for diarrhea and constipation, sort of works and made me dizzy, stopped)
    • Wellbutrin (for suspected depression, gave me a lot of energy for a little while then started causing increased heart rate and made symptoms worse, stopped)
    • Zoloft (for anxiety, made me feel like a zombie and I couldn’t even function and also increased anxiety, stopped)
    • Pristiq (for what they thought was anxiety, had really bad side effects like migraines and felt super out of it, stopped)
    • Xanax (as needed, don’t really take)
    • Ativan (as needed, don’t really take)
    • Vancomyacin (for c. difficile, 1 round)
    • Dificid (for c. difficile, 1 round)
    • Metronidazole (for BV, 1 round)
    • Xifixan (for SIBO, 2 rounds)
    • Tizanidine (daily, helped muscle tremors and stiffness but ended up causing increased shakes when not taking and anxiety, stopped taking everyday)
    • Valium suppositories (were very painful and left my butt feeling super sore, stopped)
    • Propranolol (allergic reaction, got super hot and facial flushing and dizzy and swollen, stopped)
    • Metoprolol tartrate (not feel good all day long, felt super out of it, stopped)
    • Cromolyn sodium (TERRIBLE migraines, sore throat, difficulty swallowing but did improve the color of my poop from yellow / orange to a normal brown and improved the consistency of the poop, but stopped because of the really bad side effects)
    • Allegra (4 per day, light-headed, dizziness, stopped)
    • Z pack (for sinus infection)
    • Cyclobenzaprine (helps with the stomach muscle spasms but makes me shake and is kind of an upper, stopped)

“I wish none of this had happened.” – Frodo

“So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.” – Gandalf